“If you love someone, tell him or her. Forget about the rules or the fear of looking ridiculous. What is truly ridiculous is passing up on an opportunity to tell someone that your heart is invested in him or her.”
My initial reaction upon reading this was, “Hey, yeah, go for it, Beth. What have you got to lose?” followed immediately by, “Uh-uh. No way. You have plenty to lose.”
Although my second thoughts are in part due to being wary, I’m going to credit maturity & common sense. I think the older you get, the risks get riskier in that you have less time to recover from possible damage. Life may throw you some curve balls but there are some you can dodge - where you possess some degree of control.
I’ve had my fair share of not-so-great moments this past while and I’m reluctant to invite the possibility of more into my life. (And that possibility looms large in this particular scenario.) More importantly, I’m happy now. Could I be happier? Possibly. But why risk the happiness I now have?
Call me a wimp or a coward – I’m okay with that. I admit, I do care about rules. Not all rules are made to be broken. However, I’m not afraid of looking ridiculous (I’ve certainly done it often enough in other aspects of my life) and I doubt I would in this situation. Well, maybe I am afraid…just a bit… I no longer trust in matters of (my own) heart.
So, I’m going with the nay-saying part of my brain - but who knows? Perhaps other less complicated & more promising opportunities may come my way and I’ll be more inclined to take a risk. For now, I’d rather play it safe than sorry – and keep on smiling…