Wednesday, November 07, 2007
Behind the Scenes
Many bloggers write about what’s happening in their lives. Those who write about literary, political or humorous events often add something regarding their personal lives.
I can only do this to a certain extent. I’m constrained by a number of factors – my sense of personal privacy, the fact my blog is not anonymous and my preference that it not become a vehicle for venting.
Six months after I began blogging, my life underwent a significant change. I am still dealing with this change on an emotional, physical, intellectual (and legal) level. I rarely discuss this on my blog and when I do, I do so in a rather cryptic manner.
I am doing very well. I surprise myself (and others) with my ability to cope and adapt. But there are days that are not-so-good. I’ve come to recognize what triggers these days - although I’m not yet very good at ignoring those triggers. (Working on that…)
So, behind the scenes in “Book Beth’s” life there is a great deal going on that never sees the light of day on this blog. These other matters can be both time consuming and overwhelming.
When significant change occurs in your life, your response to it has the potential to change you. I know I have changed. But I am determined to keep this blog “mine” – a place where I can be the Beth I know and like rather than this other Beth who has emerged. Don’t get me wrong – this new Beth was born of necessity. I may not like all the traits she possesses but “we” need them right now.
This post is not an apology for my absence of last week or any absences that may be necessary in the months ahead. It is simply an explanation.
You may not be getting “all of me” – but you’re getting what I consider the best of me.