Sunday, July 22, 2007
If you’re struggling to lose a bit of weight, don’t get pissed off at me for the subject matter of this post.
For the first time in many, many years (too many to mention) I am trying to put on weight and having difficulty doing so.
I have a newfound empathy for those suffering from anorexia and other eating disorders. While I certainly don’t have issues with my body image (i.e. I see what’s “real” when looking in the mirror – boy, do I ever) I now realize that for someone to offer the profound advice – “Just eat!” is absolutely useless. Not to mention totally missing the point.
If “just eating” was so simple, I would do it. It’s not so easy.
I used to look at pictures of Nicole Ritchie and the like (yes, I have previously admitted to reading junk magazines) and think, “Hey, have a sandwich, some fries, a milkshake…”
People with low weight problems know what the solution is but accomplishing this is by no means an easy feat.
If you’ve lost weight and your stomach has shrunk for whatever reasons (in my case, surgery and other ongoing issues) scarfing a down hearty meal just ain’t gonna happen.
Don’t be alarmed. In my case, I’m only talking 10 lbs. And my doctor said putting on just 5 of those 10 lbs. would be sufficient to get me back in fighting form. (So to speak.)
I’m doing this my own way. I eat when I’m hungry. Doesn’t matter if it’s not meal time. If the stomach rumbles – it’s fed. And I’m eating “right.” (Okay, there’s some junk food going down too but, hey, when will such an opportunity come again?)
It’s a slow process with a few setbacks but I’m doing it….
To the people who see me and say, “Wow, you’ve lost weight – you’re looking good!” – this does not help me in my mission. Fortunately, I possess the smarts to know better. I’m not about to be swayed by the thought that “less” looks good. I know what feels right for my body. I know what weight gives me the necessary energy and stamina to put in a good day.
I hate clothes shopping. Yesterday I had to. I need some clothes that fit. What was particularly depressing about this outing and the (few) purchases I made is knowing that in a matter of months (gut willing) these new clothes will no longer fit. (And, no, I did not buy a bikini…)
Who once said, “You can never be too rich or too thin?”
Rich would be nice (within limits) but, yeah, you can be too thin.