If you hurt someone without intending to, does it count as a black mark against you in the plus and minus columns of the world’s accounting system? (If one exists.) Or in your soul? I’m thinking/feeling that it does – at least in my soul.
And if your weapon of choice is silence when you’ve been hurt by the words or actions of others (or your default weapon because words may fail you at such times), is this more damaging and hurtful than responding in kind? More damaging both to yourself and to the other person?
Or if you hurt someone – by word, deed or silence - in order to protect yourself, does that count against you? Is the protection of your own soul/self a justifiable excuse?
And, really, who is actually doing all this counting except for me?
Anyone privy to my private life reading this, know that I am reflecting on my own words, deeds, silence, guilt and soul. I don’t possess a halo or anything close to resembling one.
Such musings via one’s blog is one way to express yourself when it seems impossible to do so elsewhere. A private journal also works - a far more preferable & more frequently used means for a private person such as myself. There are things I’ve written that have never seen (or should never have seen) the light of day. But there are times when others in the blogging world respond and provide a much needed, appreciated and different perspective.
Or, I will simply emerge from this contemplative stage on my own as I usually do. I’ve managed to get this far in life wondering and stumbling. I never fall. I just get a little quiet…for a little while.
(Just noticed there’s a typo in the I image posted…while at times I may be verbally at a loss as to words, apparently my eyes are in working order…)
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