When you feel you’ve let others down, disappointed them with your words, actions (or inaction) you tend to react in one of two ways.
You either feel regret, remorse and guilt OR you become defensive, angry and frustrated with the unrealistic expectations that were placed upon you. (And I will begrudgingly admit that at times I bring on the disappointment of others by having unwittingly given them a false impression of who and what I am.)
Or perhaps you experience a mixture of all the emotions noted above – none of which are good for you.
I love the following song because it enables me to release those negative emotions. I will sing the chorus (my favourite part) loudly – with gusto and great emphasis.
I actually surprised one of my kids the other day when I came in the house laden with groceries and singing at the top of my lungs, “Hate me today!” And while not a proponent of hate, when I’m singing that chorus I’m like, “Hey, bring it on…”
Anyway, give it a try. Might help. Or listening to it will simply confirm the (false?) impression I’m giving of myself on this blog. That I’m crazy. I’m not. I don’t think. But I will grant you the possibility that I’m slightly eccentric and/or that my taste in music doesn’t jive with that “sweet, nice” Beth.
(Please note: I am not a recovering alcoholic or suicidal. Despite what a song might actually be about, I have a tendency to take what I want from lyrics.)
And to all those who faithfully leave comments, I suspect you may be perplexed as to commenting on this post/song. Not to worry. You’re off the hook.
Hate Me – Blue October