“I had never learned how to talk like a girl, the way Rae could…my natural language was all private. What came out when I spoke was only a hacked-up version of the thoughts that lay graceful and complete in my brain.”
Rich In Love – Josephine Humphreys
I can relate to this quotation - both the talking like a girl part and the hidden private language bit. Perhaps it explains one of the reasons I love to write, communicate via the written word. When I speak, my words seem jumbled to me. The sense of them, the meaning – all that I truly want to say – never seem just right. If I’m unable to articulate all those graceful thoughts, at least I can attempt to express them on paper.
I wonder if this brain to mouth malfunction is the reason I was never very good at flirting? I’m still not.
And just in case that first quotation wasn’t perfectly clear, here’s an even better one to explain the (my) dilemma.
"When you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and you Think of Things, you find sometimes that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it."
A. A. Milne